June 7, 2023

 Grateful that for and funks can clear up and move off and that minds can clear and hearts lighten. Thankful that nothing stays the same forever. Sometimes I wish certain things would stay mostly the same always, but no…eternal progression is the nature of life. That’s reality. And today I felt stuck in a fog of sadness and my heart felt right and heavy and I wasn’t looking forward to anything. And then Ryan got home. And William came with me to pick him up. And we are some yummy food from Mo Bettah’s. And then we had youth night and I found some quick and easy reading chart things to print out for the youth to be encouraged to read and pray. And I went to see the Forsgren’s new cat Jasper. Who is very cute and little and mostly white. Will and James came too. It was great to be there. And then I came home and we relaxed and I ironed a shirt for Ryan and we had prayer and read scriptures and just hung out while Ryan played the new Zelda. It was great. It felt great to be together and I felt happy and lighter and more peaceful and I was reminded again of my goals. And I felt love and not so much darn fear. I am thankful that we can progress eternally. I am thankful that though I am nothing with Christ I can do anything I need to. I am thankful for prayer. I am thankful for Ryan and Peter who for his SIM card today and is so happy and grateful and went to lunch with Autumn and is so happy and grateful. I am thankful that tomorrow morning we get to go for a hike with my dad. The first one in a long time. I am excited about my goals. I’m going to keep in them and not give up. I have a long ways to go, but I know I can do it. 

My boys and Ryan are my greatest joys and biggest worries, but we are doing okay and mostly pretty great and we are in this together. We have so many blessings raining down on us. I just need to put down my umbrella. And I keep trying. To that’s what I can do. Jesus can do the rest if I just have more trust!