4 days until I turn 40, and 100 days until Christmas...
It is a beautiful fall-is day. It's cool, there is a nice breeze blowing, and the leaves are just starting to turn colors. The pine needles in the backyard are covering the lawn, the way they do each fall. Surprising us each fall. We have lived in our beautiful bungalow for four years now. It's kind of amazing that every home we've lived in since our boys were born has been a bungalow, with a porch, and a porch swing. And each home has been really close to 100 year old. This home is now 101 years old. Our home on 24th is 100 years old this year, and the one on 26th is 97 year old, I believe. Part of me cannot even believe that it is September already. 2019 has flown by. In many ways. It's been a good year and I have learned so much. The summer was too quick, too full of fun vacations, and not enough boring, hot down-time to get sick of summer and wish for fall. The boys start school too early. And I am struggling to remember what I did all last spring? What did I do? Where was I? How did the spring pass so quickly?
It is time for me to go pick up my boys. I love them so very much. I've spend my days learning and loving and living. I've loved this year. I don't want it to pass so quickly so I am going to start writing again. About each and every day. I have so many ideas for books. So many things I can write about.
Tonight I am going to Sunni's book release celebration. If I am honest, I have to admit that I don't want to go. I am still trying to get over the belief that she is a better version of me. Or I am a lesser version of her. This is simply not true, but our similarities are uncanny, and her superiority is easily imagined.
She is not better. She is not more loved. She is Sunni. I am Charity. I love my life. I truly do. And if there are things I want to change, I can change them. But I am good. And since I don't have the results of my biopsies from last week yet, I can't use the excuse that "I have cancer!". And thankfully, I probably don't! Maybe I'll throw up before 6:30!
Good walk with my mom this morning. Great times with the boys this weekend. Working on my health this month, and I am genuinely excited about my birthday party this Friday! Forty is going to be the absolute best thing for me!!!!
It is time for me to go pick up my boys. I love them so very much. I've spend my days learning and loving and living. I've loved this year. I don't want it to pass so quickly so I am going to start writing again. About each and every day. I have so many ideas for books. So many things I can write about.
Tonight I am going to Sunni's book release celebration. If I am honest, I have to admit that I don't want to go. I am still trying to get over the belief that she is a better version of me. Or I am a lesser version of her. This is simply not true, but our similarities are uncanny, and her superiority is easily imagined.
She is not better. She is not more loved. She is Sunni. I am Charity. I love my life. I truly do. And if there are things I want to change, I can change them. But I am good. And since I don't have the results of my biopsies from last week yet, I can't use the excuse that "I have cancer!". And thankfully, I probably don't! Maybe I'll throw up before 6:30!
Good walk with my mom this morning. Great times with the boys this weekend. Working on my health this month, and I am genuinely excited about my birthday party this Friday! Forty is going to be the absolute best thing for me!!!!
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