June 4, 2023

 Beautiful sabbath. Had a wonderful day in many ways. Church was great. Peter bore his testimony in sacrament meeting. I was proud of him. All the boys did a great job helping with the sacrament. We’ve been talking. About it all week. It’s been a good day to feel the Spirit and feel God’s love for me. A good day to be reminded of the blessings of agency and family. I took a long nap today and slept really soundly. When I woke up I felt uncertain about my surroundings for a bit and the for some reason felt badly about my life and surroundings. For just a bit. It took a few moments and then I remembered that I have agency. And I have been given so many blessings. I decided to take a drive to find rocks and take care of my moms plants. And then I made some chicken wings and mashed privateers and salad for dinner. James helped me make our Texas sheet cake with chocolate frosting. It was delicious! We had PPI’s after dinner and had a change to talk with and visit with and listen to each of the boys individually. That is always so good to check in with them. Ryan is a sweetheart and has been so kind and supportive. And after dinner we watched a dinosaur documentary with David Attenborough. And then had prayer and now I’m sleeping out in the hammock again. I am thankful that the boys still want me to be out here with them. I am thankful for this nice hammock. I’m grateful for the stars. Thankful for the cool days. Thankful for the sacrament. Thankful for the Savior. Thankful for the plan of salvation thankful for the blessing it is to be able to change and grow and repent and become better and have a greater capacity to love God ourselves and others. Time to sleep now. .