June 24, 2023

 Not sure why I always feel more anxious and upset and worried at night, but I do. I like having lights on. I like having someone else awake near me. I like to know the doors are locked and the kiddos are safely sleeping. I wish I lived nighttime the way I love mornings. I have had an amazingly great day today. It’s been long, but beautiful and good. I keep thinking about the power of thinking. When I think loving and faithful and hopeful thoughts, I feel greater joy and peace and I feel confident that I can do what God would have me do. That I am good enough because I am His daughter and He loves me. I have been able to get a lot done today. I mowed the front and ride some weeding and helped the boys get their mowing done. I tidied and did laundry and dishes. I went and bought stuff to make cupcakes and some gifts for my dad. I helped take the storm windows down so Will and Peter can finally open their windows and have fresh air! I am so excited! I let Dolly out. I hiked with my dad and family and had a beautiful evening. We are dinner at Dylan’s. The cupcakes were yummy and the frosting was the best. And it was so good to see some of my sibs and nephew and nieces and my dad. The reservoir is soooo full! It’s amazing. 

I felt like I could do things today. I felt competent. I had to rest sometimes. And I am not perfect. And I didn’t do anything perfectly, but I set out to get some things done and I did. And that felt good. I need to think about things one day at a time still. Because tomorrow is a busy church day. Lots of meetings. And I’m not sure exactly whether or not I can get all we need to planned for camp. But we will do what we can. 

Change your thoughts, change your world. I think that having faith-filled, hopeful, loving thoughts and thinking about what love looks like here and now will help me find greater peace and joy every day and not be so afraid at nights. I can do all things through Christ.