March 31: Time

 I found out today that I have four cysts in my left breast. I didn’t know that until today. I was surprised and unsettled, as I watched the friendly and kind ultrasound tech count and measure them on her screen. And I began thinking about time. How much I had left and how I wanted to spend it. I want to live with less fear and worry. And live more fully. And be I afraid of making mistakes. I want to travel and let my family know how much I love them. And I want to be less quick to judge myself and others. And more quick to love. And I want to let go of any grudges. Just let them dissolve. I want to be free from malice and shame and guilt. I want to be honest and kind and to be real. And loving. And to repent each day when I mess up. The tech told me faster speaking with the radiologist that everything looked fine. The cysts had not changed size. They were just cysts. I started crying. I am so thankful for the time I have. I don’t want to waste a single day or hour. It was. Ice to be with family tonight. We got Hawaiian food and watched the first Batman movie with Michael Keaton. It was fun and so old! And then we watched Lego Batman’s. Good to be with my best friends—my family. Tomorrow is a new month and one of my favorites. And it’s general conference. I am so thankful to it. I think one question I have is how do I live with less fear and more love. How Toni let love motivate me and not fear. And how do I do all things through Christ b