June 23: Libraries, Lightning and Haircuts

 Struggling so much today. I have been in the verge of crying or throwing something most of today. Not a great place to be emotionally. But there have been some great things too. Ryan went biking with the group from the stake. Peter went paddle boarding with my mom and Stan and had a good time up at the dam. Will and James went to summer camp and did Star Wars stuff. Tenley had a birthday party. I went to the library with Tenley and Callie. And the dollar store. They got makeup and scrunchies. It was fun. And the boys are amazing and helpful. And Ryan loves me. My hair is really short and right now I don’t like it much. Melissa cut it for me. We have had a difficult time. I have had a difficult time with her today. I realize it’s because she doesn’t clearly communicate and I end up feeling trapped and uncertain and unheard and don’t know how to talk so she will listen. Good to figure that out. And it’s 90 days until my birthday.