My morning in Ryan's car....in the rain....in the cemetery.
So that's where I spent a good 45 this morning. And another 20 or so walking around the cemetery in the rain, trying to mostly stay under the big huge beautiful pine trees so as to not get entirely soaked. It was just what I needed this morning.
I went from feeling frustrated and disappointed in myself for not being wise enough to avoid making the same mistakes over and over again, to feeling grateful, peaceful and joyful. I went from wishing I could be different, to being grateful for how and who I am, and who I am becoming. I went from feeling like life was long, and I had learned so little, to feeling aware of and grateful for all I have learned in these past 38 years, and hopeful for the future and all I have left to learn.
I had an eye-opening experience this week, after a long conversation, also in a car, in the rain, with my next-door neighbor, super-good friend, Molly.
Who do I want to be?
Pregnant, Published, Pretty
Don't have to wait to be that version of me!
Always been a mother. At least since I was about 12, but maybe before.
Elder Renlund's talk and CS Lewis quote.
I went from feeling frustrated and disappointed in myself for not being wise enough to avoid making the same mistakes over and over again, to feeling grateful, peaceful and joyful. I went from wishing I could be different, to being grateful for how and who I am, and who I am becoming. I went from feeling like life was long, and I had learned so little, to feeling aware of and grateful for all I have learned in these past 38 years, and hopeful for the future and all I have left to learn.
I had an eye-opening experience this week, after a long conversation, also in a car, in the rain, with my next-door neighbor, super-good friend, Molly.
Who do I want to be?
Pregnant, Published, Pretty
Don't have to wait to be that version of me!
Always been a mother. At least since I was about 12, but maybe before.
Elder Renlund's talk and CS Lewis quote.
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