Quel Semana!!
I have so much to write about, and so little time, but had to at least start....I need to leave soon to pick up the boys for our rainy zoo trip...since the van is working well again, and this is a day we can do it. It should be fairly un-crowded today!
Two days ago I saw Dr. Whitehead. He told me after a stress-test measured how well my heart is working to push blood and oxygen through my body, that my heart is working at 81% of normal. Which, if I were at a lower weight, would be good enough for him to support me having another baby. Like I could get pregnant again, and he thinks my heart would be fine, and I could do it......IF.....I'm at a lower weight...like a lot lower. At least 45 pounds. I need to lose 45 pounds to be able to have a baby safely. He did the math in front of me, and it is very scientific and I believe him, and it all makes sense. When you factor in my weight to that B- 81% of normal, my heart actually looks more like it's about 53% of normal. That's a big fat F, or an F- if they do those. So he did some math and told me that to get where we need to get with my weight as a factor, which is obviously is, I need to lose 45 pounds.
And because I don't want to start a pregnancy when I'm over 40 (although I know lots of women do, and they are totally fine, they don't have B- hearts, and I don't want to mess with the extra age on top of the messy heart) this means I have six months to lose the weight. I need to lose it by my next appointment with Dr. Whitehead on September 19, 2018. The day before my 39th birthday.
If I do this, then Ryan can reverse his vasectomy, and we can try and have another baby. He has a 95% chance of being able to have kids again, because it's been less than 10 years since he had the vasectomy. It's been 7 years this summer....so we should be good. And if the bonus baby doesn't work out for whatever reason, I will be healthier than ever, and I will have done something very difficult that not very many people have done. I can do this.
And there are about 50 million ways people try to lose weight. And many of my very kind friends have offered suggestions in just the past two days. So the question becomes...what really works, and what will work for me? That's my work now. And I'm going to document it along the way, because I think it would be really interesting to read a good, well-written, memoir-style book about someone losing 45 lbs in 6 months in order to try and have a baby before she's too old, because of her low-achieving heart....etc. I don't want it to be a self-help book, or a non-fiction text book. No, this will be an Anne Morrow Lindberg style, Annie Dillard-esque memoir, or collection of essays, but more likely a memoir about my journey....with humor, and love, and really good words. Like it'll be brilliant! And it will help me to write about it...so even if I'm the only one who reads it...and Ryan...it'll be great to document the journey. And maybe little Arthur, or Elizabeth, or Rosie will enjoy it someday too...the great story of all mom and dad went through to get you here!!!
Two days ago I saw Dr. Whitehead. He told me after a stress-test measured how well my heart is working to push blood and oxygen through my body, that my heart is working at 81% of normal. Which, if I were at a lower weight, would be good enough for him to support me having another baby. Like I could get pregnant again, and he thinks my heart would be fine, and I could do it......IF.....I'm at a lower weight...like a lot lower. At least 45 pounds. I need to lose 45 pounds to be able to have a baby safely. He did the math in front of me, and it is very scientific and I believe him, and it all makes sense. When you factor in my weight to that B- 81% of normal, my heart actually looks more like it's about 53% of normal. That's a big fat F, or an F- if they do those. So he did some math and told me that to get where we need to get with my weight as a factor, which is obviously is, I need to lose 45 pounds.
And because I don't want to start a pregnancy when I'm over 40 (although I know lots of women do, and they are totally fine, they don't have B- hearts, and I don't want to mess with the extra age on top of the messy heart) this means I have six months to lose the weight. I need to lose it by my next appointment with Dr. Whitehead on September 19, 2018. The day before my 39th birthday.
If I do this, then Ryan can reverse his vasectomy, and we can try and have another baby. He has a 95% chance of being able to have kids again, because it's been less than 10 years since he had the vasectomy. It's been 7 years this summer....so we should be good. And if the bonus baby doesn't work out for whatever reason, I will be healthier than ever, and I will have done something very difficult that not very many people have done. I can do this.
And there are about 50 million ways people try to lose weight. And many of my very kind friends have offered suggestions in just the past two days. So the question becomes...what really works, and what will work for me? That's my work now. And I'm going to document it along the way, because I think it would be really interesting to read a good, well-written, memoir-style book about someone losing 45 lbs in 6 months in order to try and have a baby before she's too old, because of her low-achieving heart....etc. I don't want it to be a self-help book, or a non-fiction text book. No, this will be an Anne Morrow Lindberg style, Annie Dillard-esque memoir, or collection of essays, but more likely a memoir about my journey....with humor, and love, and really good words. Like it'll be brilliant! And it will help me to write about it...so even if I'm the only one who reads it...and Ryan...it'll be great to document the journey. And maybe little Arthur, or Elizabeth, or Rosie will enjoy it someday too...the great story of all mom and dad went through to get you here!!!
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